I choose you...

2 de marzo '19

I’m sorry… 

for being afraid, 

for not being strong, 

for not trusting the universe, 

for doubting your words, 

for not being able to fully see your actions, 

for breaking down, 

for not being man enough,  

for needing reassurance, 

for getting reassurance and yet being unable to let go of my fear, 

for needing a hug, 

for wanting you here, 

for being selfish and not wanting to share you, 

for having wounds and scars, 

for not fully seeing you, 

for doubting myself, 

for not recognizing my self worth… 

I hope you understand it’s hard for me… 

I have my own story… my scars… 

Though you’re like no woman I’ve ever been with… 

I still think I can end up coming on the short end, yet again… 

I love you! 

And there’s nothing holding me back from shouting that I do,

but the fact that you’re not free…

and if I do so, if I let it show… 

I’ll only end up hurting you! 

So, I can only love you in secret, 

Cause there’s someone else in that position, 

Still wearing the crown of being your love…

And that is hard… 

because it’s one of the reasons for my scars… 

But I choose: 

To believe in you, 

To trust you, 

To see you, 

To recognize the love that there is, 

To trust the universe, 

To trust love, 

To see myself, 

To recognize my worth, 

To let go of my wounds and scars, 

To go beyond fear, 

To open up, 

To love, 

I choose you!


Rodolfo Carrillo M.